representational inquiry regarding meaning » value » capability / can do
The Q, U, and Z-nodes represent modes of experiencing in the I-phase, modes of attending in the O-phase, and modes of valuing/evaluating in the A-phase.
Z of W (in I) = experiencing as world; Z of M (in O) = holistic attending; while Z-proper (in A) = capacity for valuing.
The spheres represent the ultimate cyclic/recursive character of any activity (experiencing, attending, or valuing).
The letter Z is used to represent this node primarily given the relation of its proposed numerical value (900) to the other A-phase nodes as arranged in a magic square. See letter A for an explanation.
With a healthy dose of creative (artistic/poetic) license, we might think of the letter Z—the last letter in the alphabet—in association with ultimate limiting conditions. Then we might consider the limiting conditions of experience—one's own ultimate limiting conditions—and those would be that which we're capable of experiencing. The Z-node refers to capabilities, specifically what we can do. Naturally, everything we do must be considered something we can do, and so this will include basic things like perceiving, willing, imagining, acting/behaving, and so on. Even attending to the world in an holistic mode will necessarily be limited. It will be limited by one's capacity to attend. These limitations make it possible to attend in the first place, or to act, imagine, will, perceive, and so on.
Imagine being fully enmeshed in the causal nexus of materiality devoid of ideality (especially ideas about materiality). Attending to the whole as one dynamic mixture, we immediately experience our connection to it like the animals we are. Our capabilities are experienced as coming, not from ourselves, but from how the dynamic forces at work in the mixture happen to be localized such that they are working through us. Indeed, we see that that is who we are: the localization of dynamic forces at work in the materio-causal nexus. Free from ideality, this cannot be doubted. The capacity to doubt comes only with the retrospective interpretation of the materio-causal nexus in terms of ideality —with the illusion of disembodiedness —with the illusion that we are the source of the material we have to work with. We are only responsible for what we do with the material, never the material itself, and what we can do can never not underlie what we will do. That which occasions us will never not underly us. We are a debt to pay. The debt is a gift to give.
